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Published on: December 8 2022 by Dan Dasilva
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| 00:00:00 | 00:00:04 | hey there and my name is dan for those |
| 00:00:02 | 00:00:06 | of you that don't remember those of you |
| 00:00:04 | 00:00:09 | that don't recall i know i've been away |
| 00:00:06 | 00:00:11 | for a year but this video is very much |
| 00:00:09 | 00:00:14 | needed and more so an apology to |
| 00:00:11 | 00:00:15 | everybody that |
| 00:00:14 | 00:00:16 | more than anything kind of looked up to |
| 00:00:15 | 00:00:17 | me and |
| 00:00:16 | 00:00:19 | and whatnot |
| 00:00:17 | 00:00:20 | so i'm just going to get right into it |
| 00:00:19 | 00:00:22 | because i don't want to bore you i don't |
| 00:00:20 | 00:00:23 | know how long this video is going to be |
| 00:00:22 | 00:00:26 | but i think |
| 00:00:23 | 00:00:28 | the i know the reason why i'm making |
| 00:00:26 | 00:00:31 | this subconsciously |
| 00:00:28 | 00:00:34 | is because i want to more than anything |
| 00:00:31 | 00:00:36 | uh kind of let people in on stuff they |
| 00:00:34 | 00:00:39 | didn't see and more than anything is to |
| 00:00:36 | 00:00:40 | just let other individuals on the same |
| 00:00:39 | 00:00:43 | journey |
| 00:00:40 | 00:00:46 | know that they probably aren't alone so |
| 00:00:43 | 00:00:49 | let's go back to a year when the last |
| 00:00:46 | 00:00:50 | video i made on this partikular channel |
| 00:00:49 | 00:00:54 | you'll notike |
| 00:00:50 | 00:00:56 | that i was like super super super skinny |
| 00:00:54 | 00:00:58 | and just looked malnourished i mean just |
| 00:00:56 | 00:01:00 | just to give it to you straight |
| 00:00:58 | 00:01:03 | not even sugar coating it |
| 00:01:00 | 00:01:05 | i had to go to rehab um i was heavily |
| 00:01:03 | 00:01:07 | addicted i'm not going to mention my doc |
| 00:01:05 | 00:01:08 | my drug of choice |
| 00:01:07 | 00:01:10 | but |
| 00:01:08 | 00:01:11 | it was man it was a journey and the |
| 00:01:10 | 00:01:14 | reason why i state this is because you |
| 00:01:11 | 00:01:16 | need to understand everything behind it |
| 00:01:14 | 00:01:20 | and i finally feel comfortable enough |
| 00:01:16 | 00:01:22 | to tok about it because of how well |
| 00:01:20 | 00:01:24 | i've been progressing through |
| 00:01:22 | 00:01:26 | um through sobriety i guess that's the |
| 00:01:24 | 00:01:28 | best way to put it so a lot of people |
| 00:01:26 | 00:01:30 | started to kind of notike that i wasn't |
| 00:01:28 | 00:01:33 | posting anymore i wasn't on you know |
| 00:01:30 | 00:01:34 | instagram i wasn't on twitter i wasn't |
| 00:01:33 | 00:01:36 | on youtube i kind of just like fell off |
| 00:01:34 | 00:01:39 | the face of the earth right |
| 00:01:36 | 00:01:42 | and let me tell you something is this |
| 00:01:39 | 00:01:43 | was this past year and a half almost two |
| 00:01:42 | 00:01:46 | years |
| 00:01:43 | 00:01:47 | was probably the most eye opening |
| 00:01:46 | 00:01:50 | the |
| 00:01:47 | 00:01:52 | the hardest and if anything the most |
| 00:01:50 | 00:01:54 | heartbreaking time |
| 00:01:52 | 00:01:56 | for me not because of what i |
| 00:01:54 | 00:01:58 | what i put myself through but because of |
| 00:01:56 | 00:02:00 | what i put everybody else through |
| 00:01:58 | 00:02:02 | and so i actually want to tok about |
| 00:02:00 | 00:02:06 | that so you'll notike that i don't own |
| 00:02:02 | 00:02:07 | my cars anymore um you know the original |
| 00:02:06 | 00:02:11 | the original you know watch collection |
| 00:02:07 | 00:02:13 | that i had the ap the rolex the richard |
| 00:02:11 | 00:02:14 | um i liquidated all that liquidated all |
| 00:02:13 | 00:02:15 | my cars |
| 00:02:14 | 00:02:17 | and |
| 00:02:15 | 00:02:19 | and i |
| 00:02:17 | 00:02:23 | i made a series of bad decisions and bad |
| 00:02:19 | 00:02:25 | choices that led to my main company |
| 00:02:23 | 00:02:27 | everybody pretty much just |
| 00:02:25 | 00:02:28 | just quitting because i wasn't present |
| 00:02:27 | 00:02:31 | and |
| 00:02:28 | 00:02:32 | and obviously bills kept coming in bills |
| 00:02:31 | 00:02:34 | didn't stop |
| 00:02:32 | 00:02:35 | um they're still employee expenses and i |
| 00:02:34 | 00:02:36 | wasn't advertised i wasn't doing |
| 00:02:35 | 00:02:39 | anything |
| 00:02:36 | 00:02:41 | so the company went belly up um |
| 00:02:39 | 00:02:44 | and and that is that is a hundred |
| 00:02:41 | 00:02:47 | percent my fault that is one billion |
| 00:02:44 | 00:02:49 | percent my fault and i apologize to you |
| 00:02:47 | 00:02:50 | know all all the employees that you know |
| 00:02:49 | 00:02:52 | were |
| 00:02:50 | 00:02:55 | were working for this incredible company |
| 00:02:52 | 00:02:56 | and i take full responsibility because |
| 00:02:55 | 00:02:59 | at the end of the day |
| 00:02:56 | 00:03:00 | i didn't just affect people that were |
| 00:02:59 | 00:03:02 | you know |
| 00:03:00 | 00:03:05 | depending on me to support them um but |
| 00:03:02 | 00:03:06 | it was uh a lot more of you know their |
| 00:03:05 | 00:03:08 | families and whatnot and i know a lot of |
| 00:03:06 | 00:03:10 | these individuals are you know not |
| 00:03:08 | 00:03:12 | usa-based they don't have a lot of |
| 00:03:10 | 00:03:14 | privilege and i think that's uh |
| 00:03:12 | 00:03:15 | that's really what |
| 00:03:14 | 00:03:20 | you know gets to me still to this day is |
| 00:03:15 | 00:03:23 | that their their source of dependency |
| 00:03:20 | 00:03:24 | failed them um and so i i do take |
| 00:03:23 | 00:03:27 | responsibility for that and i do |
| 00:03:24 | 00:03:30 | apologize also during the era of of when |
| 00:03:27 | 00:03:32 | i really shop dfy |
| 00:03:30 | 00:03:34 | um this was like the peak of it and when |
| 00:03:32 | 00:03:36 | i say the peak of it i mean the peak of |
| 00:03:34 | 00:03:38 | the actual um |
| 00:03:36 | 00:03:39 | addiction where i would uh man i would |
| 00:03:38 | 00:03:40 | just be |
| 00:03:39 | 00:03:43 | all day |
| 00:03:40 | 00:03:46 | sleeping and then at night just up |
| 00:03:43 | 00:03:48 | doing what i did uh some some weeks i'd |
| 00:03:46 | 00:03:49 | stay up for like three days in a row |
| 00:03:48 | 00:03:51 | four days in a row |
| 00:03:49 | 00:03:53 | and the long-term health implications |
| 00:03:51 | 00:03:55 | now that i look at it it's it's pretty |
| 00:03:53 | 00:03:59 | horrendous i probably cut my life span |
| 00:03:55 | 00:04:01 | by a third or even half at this point um |
| 00:03:59 | 00:04:05 | and so you know those individuals that |
| 00:04:01 | 00:04:08 | were in shop dfy that was that was my |
| 00:04:05 | 00:04:11 | biggest mistake not because i couldn't |
| 00:04:08 | 00:04:14 | operate it because i was incapable |
| 00:04:11 | 00:04:16 | of operating it because of my |
| 00:04:14 | 00:04:17 | cause because of my addiction and then i |
| 00:04:16 | 00:04:20 | went to |
| 00:04:17 | 00:04:23 | i went to rehab during it as well um and |
| 00:04:20 | 00:04:24 | i entrusted the company into somebody i |
| 00:04:23 | 00:04:27 | won't mention his name but you know |
| 00:04:24 | 00:04:29 | great friend great person but i put |
| 00:04:27 | 00:04:31 | somebody who wasn't trained in operating |
| 00:04:29 | 00:04:33 | anything to operate an entire operation |
| 00:04:31 | 00:04:35 | at that scale |
| 00:04:33 | 00:04:37 | and so that's when you know |
| 00:04:35 | 00:04:40 | i actually stopped allowing new |
| 00:04:37 | 00:04:42 | individuals coming into the agency |
| 00:04:40 | 00:04:44 | and i just couldn't single-handedly |
| 00:04:42 | 00:04:47 | manage it nor could i single-handedly |
| 00:04:44 | 00:04:51 | create the operations and systems needed |
| 00:04:47 | 00:04:52 | in place to properly uh to properly make |
| 00:04:51 | 00:04:55 | it all run |
| 00:04:52 | 00:04:59 | profitably at that point so that that |
| 00:04:55 | 00:05:01 | completely collapsed and um |
| 00:04:59 | 00:05:03 | and we reached out to all the clients |
| 00:05:01 | 00:05:06 | and when i say we one of my best friends |
| 00:05:03 | 00:05:09 | actually my best friend uh he he didn't |
| 00:05:06 | 00:05:12 | have you know much |
| 00:05:09 | 00:05:13 | much money or anything |
| 00:05:12 | 00:05:15 | at the time |
| 00:05:13 | 00:05:18 | and so what he decided to do was he |
| 00:05:15 | 00:05:19 | decided to take what he had gather other |
| 00:05:18 | 00:05:20 | funds as well |
| 00:05:19 | 00:05:23 | and |
| 00:05:20 | 00:05:26 | basically |
| 00:05:23 | 00:05:29 | acquire all the assets that i built |
| 00:05:26 | 00:05:31 | which also included acquiring the debt |
| 00:05:29 | 00:05:33 | so and the reason why he did this is |
| 00:05:31 | 00:05:34 | because the assets that i've built |
| 00:05:33 | 00:05:38 | previously |
| 00:05:34 | 00:05:40 | email lists sites uh whatever it was |
| 00:05:38 | 00:05:42 | those could still be |
| 00:05:40 | 00:05:44 | salvageable |
| 00:05:42 | 00:05:47 | so it was a distressed asset so that |
| 00:05:44 | 00:05:50 | also meant taking over the debt so you |
| 00:05:47 | 00:05:51 | know aside from taking over the debt um |
| 00:05:50 | 00:05:54 | he went out there with with the funds |
| 00:05:51 | 00:05:56 | that he raised and allocated to acquire |
| 00:05:54 | 00:05:59 | it uh the the company that i pretty much |
| 00:05:56 | 00:06:00 | was tanking um he went out and reached |
| 00:05:59 | 00:06:02 | out to |
| 00:06:00 | 00:06:06 | um |
| 00:06:02 | 00:06:08 | if i if i recall every single client and |
| 00:06:06 | 00:06:10 | um you know kind of |
| 00:06:08 | 00:06:11 | basically said hey um you know this is |
| 00:06:10 | 00:06:14 | the this is a settlement agreement |
| 00:06:11 | 00:06:17 | here's here's money etc uh we apologize |
| 00:06:14 | 00:06:19 | yada yada and i was i was so i was so |
| 00:06:17 | 00:06:20 | embarrassed i didn't even get on any of |
| 00:06:19 | 00:06:22 | these settlement |
| 00:06:20 | 00:06:24 | calls it was just it's just such an |
| 00:06:22 | 00:06:25 | embarrassing moment |
| 00:06:24 | 00:06:27 | um |
| 00:06:25 | 00:06:31 | to like to to just admit failure to |
| 00:06:27 | 00:06:33 | people that trusted you enough and |
| 00:06:31 | 00:06:35 | and and that hurts but at the end of the |
| 00:06:33 | 00:06:36 | day i have to face reality kind of say |
| 00:06:35 | 00:06:39 | it like it is |
| 00:06:36 | 00:06:42 | i i failed because of my actions and it |
| 00:06:39 | 00:06:43 | and it hurt a lot of people i lost a lot |
| 00:06:42 | 00:06:45 | of friends |
| 00:06:43 | 00:06:47 | um friends that i thought would be there |
| 00:06:45 | 00:06:49 | to help me at my lowest weren't there |
| 00:06:47 | 00:06:51 | there was only one friend |
| 00:06:49 | 00:06:54 | and and he you know he's he's literally |
| 00:06:51 | 00:06:57 | my best friend he was the only one that |
| 00:06:54 | 00:06:59 | truly went out there and and uh took the |
| 00:06:57 | 00:07:01 | action to help |
| 00:06:59 | 00:07:03 | so he contacted my parents and then my |
| 00:07:01 | 00:07:06 | dad sat me down he was like listen |
| 00:07:03 | 00:07:07 | i know i know what's going on now |
| 00:07:06 | 00:07:09 | anthony told me everything and i was |
| 00:07:07 | 00:07:11 | just like |
| 00:07:09 | 00:07:14 | well cat's out of the bag |
| 00:07:11 | 00:07:16 | and again he didn't have to come in and |
| 00:07:14 | 00:07:17 | and i know my dad even though till this |
| 00:07:16 | 00:07:20 | day i don't think he'll say it but my |
| 00:07:17 | 00:07:22 | dad definitely helped with the funding |
| 00:07:20 | 00:07:24 | of of kind of acquiring my assets from |
| 00:07:22 | 00:07:27 | anthony's side and i'm you know i'm i'm |
| 00:07:24 | 00:07:30 | forever grateful for that there's |
| 00:07:27 | 00:07:33 | there's no if ands or buts about it and |
| 00:07:30 | 00:07:35 | after rehab i came out and immediately |
| 00:07:33 | 00:07:38 | it didn't even take an hour of being |
| 00:07:35 | 00:07:39 | home i i immediately relapsed |
| 00:07:38 | 00:07:41 | and and we're not toking about alcohol |
| 00:07:39 | 00:07:44 | either you know even though alcohol is a |
| 00:07:41 | 00:07:47 | pretty is a is a pretty big addiction it |
| 00:07:44 | 00:07:50 | would it was harder drugs um |
| 00:07:47 | 00:07:52 | and yeah i i immediately relapsed i |
| 00:07:50 | 00:07:55 | wasted no time i am made my way out |
| 00:07:52 | 00:07:56 | against medical advice uh so meaning i |
| 00:07:55 | 00:07:58 | didn't finish rehab i was like i'm out |
| 00:07:56 | 00:08:00 | of here i'm done um |
| 00:07:58 | 00:08:03 | and that that clearly stated that i |
| 00:08:00 | 00:08:05 | wasn't ready but after that uh it went |
| 00:08:03 | 00:08:08 | it went on a few months and as a matter |
| 00:08:05 | 00:08:10 | of fact the drug abuse got worse believe |
| 00:08:08 | 00:08:12 | it or not i went to rehab |
| 00:08:10 | 00:08:14 | and i thought hey you know i can do this |
| 00:08:12 | 00:08:18 | on my own i came out and it was just |
| 00:08:14 | 00:08:21 | it was it amplified it was just so much |
| 00:08:18 | 00:08:22 | it was so much more catastrophic than i |
| 00:08:21 | 00:08:24 | thought |
| 00:08:22 | 00:08:26 | um than than i thought it was at the |
| 00:08:24 | 00:08:28 | time and |
| 00:08:26 | 00:08:30 | like looking back at it now i don't |
| 00:08:28 | 00:08:33 | the progression the aggressive |
| 00:08:30 | 00:08:35 | progression was just immense i |
| 00:08:33 | 00:08:37 | i don't know how |
| 00:08:35 | 00:08:38 | i let myself get to that point |
| 00:08:37 | 00:08:41 | and so |
| 00:08:38 | 00:08:42 | it came to it came to a final |
| 00:08:41 | 00:08:44 | uh |
| 00:08:42 | 00:08:47 | like cross in the road if you will |
| 00:08:44 | 00:08:50 | where i realized that every single time |
| 00:08:47 | 00:08:53 | i was using which was every day |
| 00:08:50 | 00:08:55 | i felt like garbage like i felt like i |
| 00:08:53 | 00:08:57 | was legitimately there there was |
| 00:08:55 | 00:08:59 | literally some nights where i would be |
| 00:08:57 | 00:09:01 | in bed with my heart just like just |
| 00:08:59 | 00:09:02 | going at a million miles an hour where |
| 00:09:01 | 00:09:06 | i'm like well |
| 00:09:02 | 00:09:08 | like this is this is pretty much it um |
| 00:09:06 | 00:09:10 | and there was there's many nights like |
| 00:09:08 | 00:09:12 | that and it also was due to you know |
| 00:09:10 | 00:09:14 | paranoia anxiety um because of because |
| 00:09:12 | 00:09:15 | of the use |
| 00:09:14 | 00:09:17 | and so |
| 00:09:15 | 00:09:19 | i there was something in my there was |
| 00:09:17 | 00:09:20 | something in my head that just flipped a |
| 00:09:19 | 00:09:22 | switch |
| 00:09:20 | 00:09:24 | and and reflecting on it now i |
| 00:09:22 | 00:09:27 | definitely realize |
| 00:09:24 | 00:09:29 | what what it is is the fact that i built |
| 00:09:27 | 00:09:31 | something so great |
| 00:09:29 | 00:09:33 | and let it crumble in front of my face |
| 00:09:31 | 00:09:36 | but most importantly was that and |
| 00:09:33 | 00:09:37 | subconsciously it it came to a point |
| 00:09:36 | 00:09:40 | where |
| 00:09:37 | 00:09:41 | um i said it's time to man up like you |
| 00:09:40 | 00:09:44 | have nothing else to lose there's |
| 00:09:41 | 00:09:47 | nothing else to lose my rent is being |
| 00:09:44 | 00:09:48 | paid by my parents and and best friend |
| 00:09:47 | 00:09:49 | um |
| 00:09:48 | 00:09:51 | and i know my best friend didn't have |
| 00:09:49 | 00:09:53 | the capital at the time and my parents |
| 00:09:51 | 00:09:55 | you know they're not wealthy amongst |
| 00:09:53 | 00:09:57 | their wildest beliefs so my burden was |
| 00:09:55 | 00:09:59 | on everybody else because of my |
| 00:09:57 | 00:09:59 | decisions that i was making |
| 00:09:59 | 00:10:01 | and |
| 00:09:59 | 00:10:02 | and that was the pivotal point for me |
| 00:10:01 | 00:10:06 | was |
| 00:10:02 | 00:10:07 | um was i knew getting off stop using |
| 00:10:06 | 00:10:08 | isn't a |
| 00:10:07 | 00:10:10 | isn't |
| 00:10:08 | 00:10:11 | an easy task |
| 00:10:10 | 00:10:13 | and |
| 00:10:11 | 00:10:16 | there were times throughout you know the |
| 00:10:13 | 00:10:17 | past like month month and a half where i |
| 00:10:16 | 00:10:19 | did |
| 00:10:17 | 00:10:20 | i did use |
| 00:10:19 | 00:10:22 | but |
| 00:10:20 | 00:10:24 | it wasn't like every there were only two |
| 00:10:22 | 00:10:27 | times in the past month and a half right |
| 00:10:24 | 00:10:29 | and each time i don't i only did |
| 00:10:27 | 00:10:32 | a little bit but i dumped it i i was |
| 00:10:29 | 00:10:34 | like no because when i used i felt like |
| 00:10:32 | 00:10:34 | garbage |
| 00:10:34 | 00:10:37 | and |
| 00:10:34 | 00:10:38 | and every single time that i used in the |
| 00:10:37 | 00:10:42 | last you know two times in the past |
| 00:10:38 | 00:10:44 | month and a half uh it was just |
| 00:10:42 | 00:10:46 | it was just the feeling of i don't want |
| 00:10:44 | 00:10:47 | this and so that's what |
| 00:10:46 | 00:10:51 | that's what |
| 00:10:47 | 00:10:52 | allowed me to in my brain reprogram |
| 00:10:51 | 00:10:54 | myself |
| 00:10:52 | 00:10:56 | to just associate that feeling of |
| 00:10:54 | 00:10:57 | constantly being in bed and not in |
| 00:10:56 | 00:10:58 | commission |
| 00:10:57 | 00:11:02 | which |
| 00:10:58 | 00:11:05 | which is the direct result of uh |
| 00:11:02 | 00:11:07 | which which the direct results of that |
| 00:11:05 | 00:11:08 | is no progress in not moving the needle |
| 00:11:07 | 00:11:11 | i'm always about moving the needle and |
| 00:11:08 | 00:11:13 | progressing so there's this long |
| 00:11:11 | 00:11:15 | stagnant period where |
| 00:11:13 | 00:11:17 | i just you know stop business in general |
| 00:11:15 | 00:11:19 | i don't sell courses anymore and i'll |
| 00:11:17 | 00:11:22 | get to what i'm doing now and how i |
| 00:11:19 | 00:11:23 | think it's how i've just been |
| 00:11:22 | 00:11:26 | way more content but at the end of the |
| 00:11:23 | 00:11:28 | day the one thing that i want to say |
| 00:11:26 | 00:11:30 | is i know a lot of other uh you know |
| 00:11:28 | 00:11:32 | entrepreneurs or people that are |
| 00:11:30 | 00:11:34 | starting businesses |
| 00:11:32 | 00:11:36 | listen drug use |
| 00:11:34 | 00:11:38 | is gonna happen |
| 00:11:36 | 00:11:40 | whatever you know i'm not saying you |
| 00:11:38 | 00:11:42 | know like using super hardcore drugs |
| 00:11:40 | 00:11:44 | i'm just saying that you're going to be |
| 00:11:42 | 00:11:46 | in environments where they're going to |
| 00:11:44 | 00:11:48 | be present and i'm not toking about you |
| 00:11:46 | 00:11:49 | know i'm going to tok about weed |
| 00:11:48 | 00:11:52 | you know i'm not toking really about |
| 00:11:49 | 00:11:54 | alcohol either you can get you can get a |
| 00:11:52 | 00:11:56 | lot harder without getting vicious like |
| 00:11:54 | 00:11:59 | you don't need to go to the heroin level |
| 00:11:56 | 00:12:01 | but it can you can form addictions with |
| 00:11:59 | 00:12:02 | you know other substances you're going |
| 00:12:01 | 00:12:05 | to be put in this crossroad to say yes |
| 00:12:02 | 00:12:07 | or no and decide from there because it |
| 00:12:05 | 00:12:08 | only takes one time |
| 00:12:07 | 00:12:09 | and that's the most true thing i can |
| 00:12:08 | 00:12:11 | tell you it takes one time but you're |
| 00:12:09 | 00:12:13 | going to be put in this crossroad |
| 00:12:11 | 00:12:14 | everybody does get put in this crossroad |
| 00:12:13 | 00:12:16 | where you decide where you want to go |
| 00:12:14 | 00:12:17 | you either say yes or no if you say yes |
| 00:12:16 | 00:12:19 | then you have to understand there's |
| 00:12:17 | 00:12:21 | massive reprecautions for it if you get |
| 00:12:19 | 00:12:22 | hooked and if you don't get hooked it's |
| 00:12:21 | 00:12:25 | it's like a shark tasting blood you know |
| 00:12:22 | 00:12:26 | it's there and you know the |
| 00:12:25 | 00:12:28 | if it provides you know a good |
| 00:12:26 | 00:12:31 | experience and dopamine release then yes |
| 00:12:28 | 00:12:33 | you're going to naturally associate that |
| 00:12:31 | 00:12:35 | partikular experience that usage of |
| 00:12:33 | 00:12:37 | whatever it is to a good experience |
| 00:12:35 | 00:12:39 | which is naturally going to cause your |
| 00:12:37 | 00:12:40 | brain to gravitate towards that because |
| 00:12:39 | 00:12:42 | as human beings we gravitate towards |
| 00:12:40 | 00:12:45 | pleasure and try to move away from pain |
| 00:12:42 | 00:12:47 | as much as we can so you have to make |
| 00:12:45 | 00:12:50 | that conscious decision to say yes or no |
| 00:12:47 | 00:12:53 | and and this video is mainly |
| 00:12:50 | 00:12:54 | to just kind of tell everybody that |
| 00:12:53 | 00:12:56 | that conscious decision needs to be top |
| 00:12:54 | 00:12:57 | of mind no matter what environment |
| 00:12:56 | 00:12:59 | you're in |
| 00:12:57 | 00:13:01 | and don't you know |
| 00:12:59 | 00:13:04 | don't think that you're i listen i |
| 00:13:01 | 00:13:06 | thought i thought i was way stronger |
| 00:13:04 | 00:13:08 | than uh you know previously when i was |
| 00:13:06 | 00:13:10 | like oh an attik you just stop like like |
| 00:13:08 | 00:13:12 | whatever i was very naive it was very |
| 00:13:10 | 00:13:14 | arrogant to think that way and then i |
| 00:13:12 | 00:13:15 | went to rehab i really saw a lot of |
| 00:13:14 | 00:13:18 | people but now let's tok about after |
| 00:13:15 | 00:13:20 | the fall after i lost everything let me |
| 00:13:18 | 00:13:21 | i'm not even going to disclose the |
| 00:13:20 | 00:13:23 | amount of money i spent on drugs it |
| 00:13:21 | 00:13:28 | would just be |
| 00:13:23 | 00:13:28 | oh goodness oh man that is that |
| 00:13:29 | 00:13:34 | it still haunts me till this day and so |
| 00:13:33 | 00:13:36 | the the one thing that i will say is |
| 00:13:34 | 00:13:38 | that i found something that i like to do |
| 00:13:36 | 00:13:41 | i stopped selling courses and i found |
| 00:13:38 | 00:13:44 | stuff that i i like to do |
| 00:13:41 | 00:13:46 | and like a true passion that doesn't |
| 00:13:44 | 00:13:47 | necessarily |
| 00:13:46 | 00:13:48 | need me to be selling and chilling |
| 00:13:47 | 00:13:50 | courses |
| 00:13:48 | 00:13:52 | and all of that it's just something that |
| 00:13:50 | 00:13:55 | i you know wasn't |
| 00:13:52 | 00:13:58 | i i veered away from that even before |
| 00:13:55 | 00:14:01 | the entire usage but i ended up |
| 00:13:58 | 00:14:03 | gravitating towards and it just so it's |
| 00:14:01 | 00:14:04 | it just so happens that the entire |
| 00:14:03 | 00:14:06 | marketplace and so many people |
| 00:14:04 | 00:14:08 | gravitated towards this was like crypto |
| 00:14:06 | 00:14:10 | and nfts but here's the thing is i did |
| 00:14:08 | 00:14:12 | it in silence you know for months i was |
| 00:14:10 | 00:14:14 | just doing it on my own uh learning |
| 00:14:12 | 00:14:16 | everything i can about blockchain |
| 00:14:14 | 00:14:20 | tiknology i even am teaching myself |
| 00:14:16 | 00:14:23 | currently solidity on how to program um |
| 00:14:20 | 00:14:25 | for you know for right now on ethereum |
| 00:14:23 | 00:14:27 | but when it comes down to it i actually |
| 00:14:25 | 00:14:28 | enjoy doing this and |
| 00:14:27 | 00:14:31 | the |
| 00:14:28 | 00:14:33 | other thing is that i started a channel |
| 00:14:31 | 00:14:34 | called hidden gem network and i didn't |
| 00:14:33 | 00:14:36 | put it under this channel under the the |
| 00:14:34 | 00:14:37 | main channel that i have this one that |
| 00:14:36 | 00:14:39 | you're watching this on because i didn't |
| 00:14:37 | 00:14:41 | feel comfortable um |
| 00:14:39 | 00:14:43 | you know releasing those videos here so |
| 00:14:41 | 00:14:44 | i started a brand new channel and it it |
| 00:14:43 | 00:14:46 | has taken off |
| 00:14:44 | 00:14:49 | now if you find it great if you don't |
| 00:14:46 | 00:14:51 | i'm not gonna show it here um but i just |
| 00:14:49 | 00:14:55 | toked about projects that i really |
| 00:14:51 | 00:14:57 | liked and i just shared myself |
| 00:14:55 | 00:14:58 | you know kind of being being a d5 |
| 00:14:57 | 00:14:59 | degenerate at that point |
| 00:14:58 | 00:15:03 | so |
| 00:14:59 | 00:15:05 | i i thoroughly enjoy i enjoy spending |
| 00:15:03 | 00:15:07 | you know eight hours nine hours ten |
| 00:15:05 | 00:15:08 | hours a day just researching and |
| 00:15:07 | 00:15:11 | researching whether that's looking at |
| 00:15:08 | 00:15:13 | different projects or diving into road |
| 00:15:11 | 00:15:14 | maps or white papers looking at nft |
| 00:15:13 | 00:15:17 | projects seeing what they're trying to |
| 00:15:14 | 00:15:20 | accomplish anything in d5 and nfts i'm |
| 00:15:17 | 00:15:22 | all i'm all ears so you know when it |
| 00:15:20 | 00:15:24 | comes down to |
| 00:15:22 | 00:15:26 | to pivoting completely i found it really |
| 00:15:24 | 00:15:28 | interesting that i was able to become |
| 00:15:26 | 00:15:29 | way more successful doing something that |
| 00:15:28 | 00:15:31 | i really like without having to |
| 00:15:29 | 00:15:34 | necessarily be in the public eye so a |
| 00:15:31 | 00:15:35 | lot of people didn't know for you know |
| 00:15:34 | 00:15:37 | for months what i was doing i just |
| 00:15:35 | 00:15:41 | completely went off the grid |
| 00:15:37 | 00:15:43 | and i i really i really enjoyed that i |
| 00:15:41 | 00:15:45 | really really liked it and then out of |
| 00:15:43 | 00:15:47 | nowhere one day i wanted to game the |
| 00:15:45 | 00:15:48 | tiktok algorithm and i started |
| 00:15:47 | 00:15:50 | multiple different tiktok accounts |
| 00:15:48 | 00:15:51 | and all of them went viral millions of |
| 00:15:50 | 00:15:54 | views within you know within a week two |
| 00:15:51 | 00:15:56 | weeks and all five accounts it was like |
| 00:15:54 | 00:15:58 | crypto crime stopper crypto dandy uh |
| 00:15:56 | 00:15:59 | there was a bunch of different tiktok |
| 00:15:58 | 00:16:00 | accounts that i made and i wanted to |
| 00:15:59 | 00:16:02 | game the algorithm i just wanted to |
| 00:16:00 | 00:16:04 | learn the algorithm and then i realized |
| 00:16:02 | 00:16:07 | that i really enjoyed making that |
| 00:16:04 | 00:16:10 | content um these like 15 these 60 second |
| 00:16:07 | 00:16:12 | videos it was it was fun um and then |
| 00:16:10 | 00:16:14 | that's kind of when i decided to take |
| 00:16:12 | 00:16:15 | the youtube channel more serious |
| 00:16:14 | 00:16:18 | and |
| 00:16:15 | 00:16:20 | now i'm here now i'm in |
| 00:16:18 | 00:16:22 | i'm in one of the best positions i've |
| 00:16:20 | 00:16:25 | ever been in i feel great you know i've |
| 00:16:22 | 00:16:28 | switched my diet starting yesterday to |
| 00:16:25 | 00:16:31 | simply to literally just to just greens |
| 00:16:28 | 00:16:32 | so i'm going i'm going um |
| 00:16:31 | 00:16:35 | completely |
| 00:16:32 | 00:16:38 | green vegetable based for the next few |
| 00:16:35 | 00:16:40 | months just to replenish my body |
| 00:16:38 | 00:16:41 | and see how it goes |
| 00:16:40 | 00:16:43 | but again i'm not going to |
| 00:16:41 | 00:16:45 | shield anything in this video if you |
| 00:16:43 | 00:16:47 | find my other channel great if you don't |
| 00:16:45 | 00:16:48 | then don't go looking for it |
| 00:16:47 | 00:16:50 | but |
| 00:16:48 | 00:16:52 | you know at this point i've privated all |
| 00:16:50 | 00:16:54 | the videos on this channel um after |
| 00:16:52 | 00:16:56 | uploading this |
| 00:16:54 | 00:16:58 | and the the thing is is that i will be |
| 00:16:56 | 00:16:59 | creating more content on this channel |
| 00:16:58 | 00:17:00 | but it's gonna be content that i like to |
| 00:16:59 | 00:17:01 | do |
| 00:17:00 | 00:17:03 | this channel will probably pivot to like |
| 00:17:01 | 00:17:05 | me toking about nfts and stuff that i'm |
| 00:17:03 | 00:17:07 | investing in and just showing you case |
| 00:17:05 | 00:17:09 | studies not you know not telling you hey |
| 00:17:07 | 00:17:10 | buy this buy this no i'm gonna show you |
| 00:17:09 | 00:17:11 | what i'm doing |
| 00:17:10 | 00:17:12 | and |
| 00:17:11 | 00:17:15 | and just leave it at that just have fun |
| 00:17:12 | 00:17:17 | with it at this point i just want people |
| 00:17:15 | 00:17:19 | to see the journey and most importantly |
| 00:17:17 | 00:17:21 | i want people to learn from it learn |
| 00:17:19 | 00:17:22 | from my mistakes |
| 00:17:21 | 00:17:24 | is that |
| 00:17:22 | 00:17:26 | you can build something great |
| 00:17:24 | 00:17:28 | and you can lose it just as fast as a |
| 00:17:26 | 00:17:29 | matter of fact you can lose it faster |
| 00:17:28 | 00:17:33 | than it took to build |
| 00:17:29 | 00:17:36 | a reputation takes a lifetime to build |
| 00:17:33 | 00:17:38 | and it takes a second to destroy |
| 00:17:36 | 00:17:40 | and the other thing that i'm doing |
| 00:17:38 | 00:17:43 | is i am |
| 00:17:40 | 00:17:46 | i am pushing the boundaries to learn |
| 00:17:43 | 00:17:48 | as fast as i humanly possibly can |
| 00:17:46 | 00:17:51 | because i lost a lot of time |
| 00:17:48 | 00:17:53 | not pushing forward and growing during |
| 00:17:51 | 00:17:54 | these last year year and a half two |
| 00:17:53 | 00:17:56 | years |
| 00:17:54 | 00:17:58 | so i need to make up for lost time and |
| 00:17:56 | 00:18:00 | grounds to be covered and relationships |
| 00:17:58 | 00:18:01 | to be rebuilt |
| 00:18:00 | 00:18:03 | so |
| 00:18:01 | 00:18:04 | this video is just an apology to |
| 00:18:03 | 00:18:04 | everybody that looked up to me and |
| 00:18:04 | 00:18:07 | thought |
| 00:18:04 | 00:18:09 | you know that i was i was |
| 00:18:07 | 00:18:12 | this almighty per i'm not i'm a human |
| 00:18:09 | 00:18:14 | being and i failed |
| 00:18:12 | 00:18:17 | but ironically i'm in the best position |
| 00:18:14 | 00:18:18 | not just financially but spiritually and |
| 00:18:17 | 00:18:20 | and just |
| 00:18:18 | 00:18:21 | content |
| 00:18:20 | 00:18:22 | and that's pretty much it but i'll end |
| 00:18:21 | 00:18:24 | off here |
| 00:18:22 | 00:18:25 | is don't be afraid to be honest with |
| 00:18:24 | 00:18:27 | yourself |
| 00:18:25 | 00:18:29 | okay that's it |
| 00:18:27 | 00:18:31 | just like it took a lot of courage for |
| 00:18:29 | 00:18:32 | i've been contemplating making this for |
| 00:18:31 | 00:18:33 | so long because at the end of the day i |
| 00:18:32 | 00:18:35 | don't have to worry about shilling |
| 00:18:33 | 00:18:37 | myself anymore |
| 00:18:35 | 00:18:38 | so i don't necessarily need to watch you |
| 00:18:37 | 00:18:40 | know kind of |
| 00:18:38 | 00:18:41 | what what i'm saying or how i portray at |
| 00:18:40 | 00:18:44 | this point i just want it to be a |
| 00:18:41 | 00:18:47 | journey that people embark with me |
| 00:18:44 | 00:18:48 | and that's pretty much it so |
| 00:18:47 | 00:18:49 | god bless |
| 00:18:48 | 00:18:51 | and uh |
| 00:18:49 | 00:18:54 | hopefully see you guys soon have a great |
| 00:18:51 | 00:18:54 | one |
